11 years in tech. 6 in DevOps. And for most of it I was doing exactly what I was told — executing tasks, closing tickets, moving on. The bull tied to the cart. Useful, reliable, going in circles.
I was never asked to design. Never asked why. Just how fast and how clean. Good at it, yes. But that's not enough anymore — not for where I want to go, not for who I want to become as an engineer.
This journey is about building the thinking I never built in 11 years. Not just more tools. Not just more certs. A complete rewiring of how I look at systems.
I'm documenting it publicly because accountability matters, and because every DevOps engineer who's felt exactly this way deserves to see someone do it honestly — not the curated version.